For Christmas, family gave me 3 large, plastic ‘bottles’ of “Oil of Olay”.  The labels all touted promises of super moisturizing, etc. – in letters large enough to read without glasses. (Clue #1)

While I’m not very diligent about “body lotion”, I DO make sure I keep my face fully moisturized (in the vain attempt to ward off the dreaded wrinkles – silly me ^_^).  Since I had 3 large bottles, I decided to try some on my face – I mean, it’s “Oil of Olay”, right?  I figured the only possible problem could be the perfume – or whatever the difference between face and body lotion that might result in that one small red spot – the indication it’s not right for MY face.

And so – on it went – including eyelids (Clue/Fact #2).  I noticed a slight burning sensation a few moments later – uh oh, won’t do THAT again.  Guess “perfume” too much.  Then it was – on with my day.

Not long after, I came across a “sad” post on FB, and as usual – there were tears.  DANG!  Wait, DAMN!  My eyes are burning, you know, like when you get soap in your eyes! (Clue #3) WTF?!?  And this time, with glasses ON, I decide to read the label all the way to the bottom!  And there in “fine print” it says “BODY WASH!!  Ah hah, my dear Watson!!! omg!  Yes, I really did cover and carefully rub in – ON MY FACE – body wash!!!

I then ‘carefully’ (to prevent more burning eyes) “washed” it off.  Need I mention that I then looked a lot like Santa?  Rosy cheeks and nose like a cherry!! ^_^  However – my skin felt “smooth as glass”!  And with the application of the correct (and soothing) lotion and the passing of time – all was well again.

The moral of the story and the “advice” – make sure you are wearing your glasses when reading the label of something you are going to either apply to or ingest into your body!!!


As in Happy New Year, Ya’ll ^_^  You can probably stop reading at this point, cause I have no idea what I shall be typing next.  Truth is, as seems to be the case a lot these days – I had actually forgotten (yes, really!) all about this blog!  I found that so shocking that I decided to see if I could still even get on here!

Not going to write anymore about the sorry state of being of this country (hmm, I guess I just did).  I will say that I, for one, am committed to a “kindness revolution”. ^_^  Stay alert for opportunities to ‘be kind’ – I’ve read that even a smile could save someone’s life!  Ya just never know. ^_^

As for the business – I have been stuck for several months at the all too familiar (dare I say) “artist’s block”.  Not to mention I’m beginning to be poked by thoughts about “how long do I want to keep doing this?”.  I hate to admit it, but all that lifting and hauling is more exhausting than it used to be. 😦  And the driving also not quite as much fun.  Still there remains the other question – if not this, WHAT?!?  Give in totally to my tendency to be a hermit???  We shall see what this new year brings.  For now I am rationalizing with the thought that there are very few people who own every single design I’ve ever done.  And that means – there is still something for most everyone. ^_^  And – – waiting for inspiration!

And so – for those who have read this far – Happy New Year again!  And may this year be better and more peace-filled than the last!  If applique is something you intend to do this year – I have a few patterns available at  😉


As I am forcing myself to prepare for a show which from this point of view is looking potentially “disasterous”, I find myself once again questioning.  That ever present question – “is it time to quit?”  And as the years have progressed, I seem to have been gathering evidence for “yes”.  I guess it’s simply a matter of time until those reasons outweigh the one that has kept me going – that being “out and about” is better for my “health and well being” than to remain “home alone” in this small space.  It is beginning to feel like the wear and tear on my aging body is overcoming the “ego perks”. 😦

And then there is this – I can not continue to be a kind of “traveling museum”.  That is, displaying a skill that was once ‘honored’, so to speak, and valued.  Handwork, like clocks with hands, is becoming extinct in terms of a skill anyone wants to learn – let alone master. And while the ‘oohs & ahhs’ feel good, they don’t pay the bills, so to speak(again^_^).  And, as we all know, everything required to produce a product and get it to a location, and into a space – all of those “expenses” have gone way up.  While “income” has continued to decline.

And that leaves the issue of ‘intent’ – why am I doing this in the first place??  Yes, I certainly need to make money!  As noted above – there are those built in expenses.  There are also the what would be called ‘overhead’ expenses, except in this case – it includes ‘living’ expenses!!  So, there is that.  However, there has always been the joy of creating and sharing.  I have refused to do things/designs just because they would sell – so to speak. (again)^_^  I have only done what has called to me – my favorite flowers, etc.  And, until recently, only using hand, needleturn applique’!  Yes, there are those two new patterns!  They are done with machine applique’.  And you might be thinking – well, then, why not just go in that direction?  And I can only say – because that would not be being true to me.  It would feel like ‘doing it for the money’ – and then it would truly become a “JOB”!  It’s hard work and hard enough to do ‘for the love of it’!!

And there you have it – my unanswered question.

After reading the Daily Guide that I use, I feel moved to write –

It seems the the 4 of us (myself and siblings) were ‘conditioned’ to sadness (@ best! and perhaps even to some degree, misery?).  And so, the overall state of mind that became comfortable and “safe” (to OUR mind) is some degree/level of UN-happiness.  And given the purpose of the mind is ‘survival’ and it sees any change/deviation from its established and accepted “status quo” as a threat (to its  survival), ANY and ALL moments of “joy and happiness” in ANY form (eg: success of any kind) must be somehow squelched and/or ‘punished’ – whatever it takes to return to its accepted “status quo” = “safety”= survival.

It is my ego/mind/programming that I am allowing to ‘run my life’ and its goal is its own survival and to hell with me – literally!!  For its concept of life is a kind of ‘living hell’!  Hah!!  Perhaps that is the true definition of “hell” – the life your ego mind gives you!  And Heaven is the Life given by God or your authentic, higher Self!!  ^_^

As a side note here – what the hell happened to the ‘underline’ option????  grrrr



I see the twinkle in your eye!  Yes, it IS ok, it IS safe to be happy and to have what you want – not bad & wrong, not selfish & self-centered – Safe & Right, God’s plan for us!! ALL of us! We were created in order for God to express and experience all of Its amazingness. ^_^  Placed within an infinite playgound filled with any & everything we could imagine.  And, in order to be able to distinguish all the good, there had to be a “background” of ‘not that’.  And we had to have the freedom to choose.  And, somehow we got lost and ‘distracted’ – our thinking and believing human wandered off into the dark, and the shadows became monsters and we kept running away from the Light – and here we are – we have turned around and are headed home!  Back to the Light and Love!!

I am grateful to know – I am a Child of God, I am God sent out to play, safe & free in God’s Infinite Playspace.

And so it is!!!

I believe there is only Good in the Universe. I believe the apparent lack of such, or apparent ‘bad, evil, wrong, etc’ is simply the result of limited perspective; ie: our inability and/or unwillingness to see ‘the bigger picture’ and/or expand our thinking.  A caterpillar stuck in the thinking and believing of a caterpillar would surely panic upon emerging from the cocoon and perhaps say “WTF, how can I even move with these big, heavy, wet things attached to my body?!”  Then, upon choosing to do what it can with what it has been ‘given’, decides to at least let those things dry so as to decrease the weight – and voila`.  ^_^

As for us humans – we are constantly being shown the results of our ‘false beliefs and wrong thinking’, but instead of taking a moment to see what good can come, we choose to make what is showing up out there ‘wrong’ and assume the role of victim.  If we were caterpillars, we would probably die of starvation because our ‘habitual and wrong’ thinking would have us remain victims and never even think of some way to make ‘good’ use of what we’d been given.

We as a Nation (and probably the World & species) have recently been given a very clear picture of what our limited, erroneous and ‘wrong’ thinking and believing has created.  We have for decades kept it hidden, or at least ignored.  Now we have been given an opportunity to heal – our ugly ‘under-belly’ has been exposed, to us and to the world.  The next four years could be very difficult and even painful for most of us.  I am choosing to do my best to take a step back and trust in the bigger picture – to know that you cannot heal what you cannot see and acknowledge. And to do my best, in whatever way I can, to be part of the solution.  To always choose Love and Gratitude.  To be grateful to be shown what needs to heal and to ask “what would Love do?”.  And, yes, probably easier said than done sometimes.  ^_-

First there is the issue of ‘hate and prejudice’ – which is really the ‘fear of other’, anything that isn’t the same as ‘me’ in every way.  And the belief that ‘we’ are RIGHT, which ‘rightness’ gives ‘us’ the right to kill anyone who won’t conform/agree with ‘me’.  And that belief has kept us locked in the cycle of wars and ‘skirmishes’ (from neighborhoods to nations)  for all of time till now.  Think on the words of the great MLK Jr!!!

And it isn’t just the hate and prejudice – there is also the greed and selfishness that has led to the few very rich and the many struggling to survive.  And the preoccupation with having more and more stuff.  The false thinking and believing in ‘things’ as the source of our happiness.             [ Spend 15 minutes watching tv! ]  And within that, the belief that there is not enough, that if ‘you’ get, it means that ‘I’ don’t.  And that it’s a ‘dog eat dog’ world – so if I am bigger and stronger than you, it’s ok for me to take from you forceably and/or illegally.

As one in my ‘elder years’, I don’t know if I will be here on Earth to see ‘what comes of this’.  I’m just doing my best to make it as ‘good’ as possible for my grandkids!  And I know they are already light years ahead of me!  ^_^

This is a scary blog to write and share.  It poured out onto the journal pages after I had actually closed, when I normally do my list of gratitudes.  I found myself in tears as I thought about all that is going on in this country – feeling helpless and hopeless, I asked the scary question – “what can I do?”  I am sharing only because it feels ‘right’ as well as scary – then again, perhaps no one will even actually read it and there won’t be anyone to laugh at my stupidity/silliness??  I guess I’ll just do it for myself.

Why am I here?  What am I to do? What did I come here to accomplish/contribute?  What purpose?  Most of the time (these days) I feel old and useless as well as ‘helpless’.  And I am as guilty as those who are “filthy rich” – as preoccupied with money – just from a different ‘angle’.  While I’m not in the very basic survival group, I feel just one step away and thus spend my days trying to “maintain” and in fear of not!  And of becoming “homeless”. 

It occurred to me the other day that we as a Nation (and maybe the World?) are in the middle of a “Scrooge-type Nightmare” – we are being shown how our preoccupation with money and its perceived power has manifested – what we have created – a very negatively energized World – greed, selfishness, fear, anger and hatred prevail.  The things we thought, as a Nation, we had healed and/or overcome have been festering underground, being fed by our preoccupation with money – that which generates all those negative feelings and actions.  We lost sight of everything Real (even Love) as we became hypnotized by the glitz and glamour – all the smoke and mirrors have led us so far down the path of “evil” – can we ever find our way back?  Right now a large number of us are being led like lemmings to the edge of the World as we know it and into a very dark and painful abyss.  And unlike Scrooge, we can’t seem to see the truth of where we’re headed.  From my perspective, it seems the very people who believe trump to be their ‘savior’ will be the first ones into the abyss.  They will be discarded now, no longer of any use to those who have gained their positions of perceived power.  And while those of us in the ‘middle’ may survive – life could be increasingly difficult and painful.  And if you are not a relatively well-off, white (Protestant??) male – you may find yourself living in some level of fear and misery constantly.  That is our current collective “Christmas Future”.  I pray we don’t have to live it to “get it”!

While I want to feel encouraged by all the more “positive” and “good” incidents, events, programs etc – it is a conscious struggle some days to not get sucked in and pulled down into the dark tunnel of despair and hopelessness/helplessness – to NOT listen to the voice of negativity that tells me I am just a stupid old lady – useless and powerless.  So, for that reason, I am posting this blog in spite of that voice.  I just might be the 100th monkey needed to inspire the 100th monkey of those who can and will make that difference!!

So if you are laughing after reading this – at the silly old lady – please, this time, practice some kindness and consideration and don’t tell me.  Thanks