contrary to that popular expression that ‘life is what happens while you are making other plans’ -Life is NOT some pre-existing ‘thing’ that we kind of walk thru and thus experience.  there is nothing there until we ‘think’ it into existence.  rather like the umpire who claims “they ain’t nothin’ till I call them” – life is as we say it is.  we Know, think, speak, and act it into existence with each nanosecond we ‘live’.  it can only show up as we believe because we are in actuality speaking it into existence.  which ‘speaking’ doesn’t mean only the words in our head and those we say.  what the Universe hears and responds to is the energy of our long held (often false) beliefs, thoughts and those words we unconsciously repeat over and over.  all those times we say “I am_______”, or even think “I am_____”.  that one tiny, 2-letter word is the most powerful tool we have – and the one we use the most unconsciously!  how many times in my life have i said “i am broke”?  versus – how many times have i said “i am enough”?  even if i now say “i am enough” because of all that i have read etc – do i really believe it?  does my inner ‘critic’ even allow me to believe it?  all that old programming that told me not to ask for more – and punished me if i did!!  yes, i have weeded out a lot of it – pretty clearly not all!!  i have reached the level of ‘enough’ – that is ‘just enough’ to stay ‘ok’.  as a clear example:  i just did a show that is typically very successful.  while preparing for it and thinking about the amount of money i usually make, i heard that voice! i heard it say “i (you) don’t need that much”, and for just one of those ‘nanoseconds’ i then felt the shame of having asked for more than i need.

none of that registered (consciously) until i sat there, at the show, wondering what the heck was happening?!  and i remembered.  😦  what i was experiencing was a direct result of my thinking and believing.  i can not have more than i ‘need’ or ‘deserve’.  i just saw, as i wrote that sentence – for me ‘deserve’ means ‘what i need to survive and no more’! my self worth is at the level of ‘existence/survival’ – i guess that’s a step up from “worthless”?? ^_^

back to creating our life as we go – i know a man who used to record every phone conversation.  for him it was a way of ‘preserving’ his life/past – something like that.  anyway, what if we all had recorded all of our conversations every day of our lives?  and what if we could replay a day, say 6 months ago?  and if we listened, how closely would what we said (and the unsaid, implied beliefs & thoughts) match what is currently showing up???  or persisting?

and “the moral of the story is?” – remember that “I am” are the most powerful words you can speak.  be as mindful a possible!  listen to your own thinking and speaking!  if you are experiencing a long standing situation or circumstance, do NOT say “I am sick and tired of ______________”!!!  examine your long held beliefs – are they serving you now?  a wise man once told us – “it is done unto you as you believe”.  if you look thru unfiltered eyes, you will find proof in every area of your life.  we were all ‘programmed’ with the pre-existing beliefs of our chosen families.  we chose our family because they fit our purpose for this lifetime – to contribute to the healing of those beliefs for the evolution of humanity.

and with that, i shall close!  to delve into that concept/belief would take many pages – and, just for the record, all of this is my belief!  i am not claiming to have the answer(s) for anyone else!  just hoping to inspire you to think about what you believe and whether those beliefs are still serving you = creating a life you love!

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