Once again, after I had finished my morning journaling and reading – there came this thought train rollin thru.  And I was moved to sit down here and begin writing and see what shows up beyond the initial musings/thoughts.

It seems to me that what we call ‘life’ and free will are like (in reverse order) – a magic wand and an infinite space in which to create ‘magic/magical things’.  And then we are left on our own to figure it all out!

First we must discover we even have such a thing – the ‘magic wand’ of free will.  And for most of us, that never really happens.  We climb aboard the victim train and ride it to our death/final destination.  Good things are ‘gifts/rewards’ from whatever our definition/sense of God may be and only if we have been good little boys and girls and have prayed ‘rightly’ and followed all the rules, etc.  Bad things are never anything we had anything to do with – unless we choose to believe we have done something bad for which we are being punished – yes, by that same “judging” god.  Who forever keeps track of our transgressions – for which we will also likely have to pay at the end of our journey.  And in the extreme may send the train to a very hot and awful place!!

Yes, we hear those words many times and from a very early age – Free Will.  We then accept whatever the current popular definition may be and have no idea how powerful we actually are.  Just because we don’t know we have a magic wand does not mean that it is not ‘working’!!  And thus, we continue to wreak havoc in our own lives and wonder “why is this happening to me?!”  We spend hours, days, months and years thinking about everything we DO NOT want and then are shocked and dismayed that it keeps showing up!!  Exactly what I didn’t want!!  God, are you not listening????  And the wand plays on.

And the first time we hear the word “responsible/responsibility” all we hear is ‘fault’.  How can you say that – that it’s all my fault??  And so we wrestle with all of that concept for awhile and slowly begin to realize we just might have something to do with the ‘stuff’ of our life – the situations and conditions, etc.  And, yes, outcomes.  And as nearly everyone I know has experienced, we begin with baby steps – you know, the familiar ‘creating a parking space’ thing.   And the whole ‘power of attraction’ processes.  And yet, we still don’t quite get it.  You see, you don’t get to tell that magic wand when and when not to do its thing!  It does whatever it is told – whatever you think, believe and/or speak!  No, probably not some vague transient thought that floats thru your mind.  Yes, all the permanent residents that have become totally unconscious and in control of your very life.

So, you may ask, if they are totally unconscious, how can I find out what they are?  Take a closer look ‘out there’!  Everything you see is simply a mirror of your own thinking and believing.  Some of it is pretty simple and obvious to connect.  Some of it may take some deeper looking – it’s all stored right there in what we call our ‘ego’.  Which is essentially our operating system and for the most part was programmed during our first 7 years here in this lifetime – except there might also be a few carryovers from a previous one. ^_^ But, that’s a whole other story. ^_^  Anyway – in my own life as I experienced a level of dismay around a certain presidential candidate, I came to the realization – given it is all a mirror, or my projection of my thoughts and beliefs, then what I’m being shown is all my unhealed and unresolved issues – my deeply buried traces of racism etc, etc.  You cannot even see what you do not already ‘know’/is not at some level ‘true’ for you.  ugh!!!  Interestingly, I have begun to see articles from folks more knowledgeable than I that we are being shown our “shadow side” as a nation/people.  Funny how that works. ^_^

Anyway – what I’m thinkin is that if we had a better perspective on this whole ‘free will’ thing and even an inkling of it’s power – we would tend to be a bit more conscious of how we ‘wave it about’!!!  Remember Mickey with the Wizard’s wand – he created quite a mess and had no idea how to undo what he had done!!!  Nearly did himself in.  Sound familiar??  Just sayin’. . . . .

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